So, I am again at the beginning of my weight loss journey. Unfortunately, this is not my first trip. I have never been a skinny girl. I can't remember a time when my thighs didn't rub together or when I could just pick up any old thing off the rack and know it would fit. And it's not because I have zero short-term memory. My biggest issues are that I like to eat and I don't exercise. It's not like the whole "Why aren't these pants fitting?" thing is a real mystery.
I'm just not motivated by the being a healthy weight is good for me thing. I never have been. What I need is some reason to be motivated beyond that. The good news is that I have some events coming up that I can use as motivation, the biggest one being that my little brother, Matt is marrying my amazing, gorgeous, built-like-she-was-made-to-hang-with-my-family sister-in-love, Mel, on June 12, 2010. And I want to wear a cute dress and have the best time, and I know I won't be able to do that if I feel and look then like I do now. I also want to set a good example of setting a goal and achieving it for my students. So, I think I am going to make this struggle a little more public than I might otherwise, harnessing the power of a classroom full of weght-loss coaches who are as ruthless as Jillian but as loving as Bob. On top of that, I have 23 months and counting until I turn the big 30. I've always said I am going to throw myself one heck of a party for this big night, and if I am going to do that, I want to look good. REALLY good. So, if I'm going to make that happen, there's never been a better time to start.
I want to make clear that I am not one of those people who sits around and talks about how unattractive I am. I am not saying that bigger can't be beautiful. I have a decent self-image and I don't bash myself or support those who do. What I am saying is that right now, I don't fit into my pants. And I like my pants, so this is a little upsetting. I have to do this, not because it is the socially conscious thing to do, but because it's the only way I am going to have clothes to wear to work because I have already made a promise to myself that I am not going to buy bigger pants.
It's time. Waistline, you are officially on notice.