I am, by nature, a play-it-safe kind of girl. I always have been. When I was little, I cried when other kids got in trouble. My senior superlative was "Teacher's Pet." I made it through my entire school career without ever getting sent to the principal's office. I was THAT kid. And there's nothing wrong with that, in theory.
It's just that I am in my 30th year on this planet. And I've grown so used to coloring inside the lines, that I've grown afraid of what might happen if I do anything out of my routine. That's just not the kind of person that I am happy with being. Now, don't expect me start jumping out of planes (I'm still scared of heights) or anything like that. But, I am going to me more open to the opportunities that present themselves, be that at work, in my personal life, or whatever else. I don't want to live a closed-off life anymore. I don't think that's what God is asking of me and I just don't think it's any way to live.
We only have so much time here, I've seen enough to know that. And while I know that we should be careful what we ask God for, I am asking that He help me live a life wide open, full-throttle. We were made for so much more. I was made for so much more. And I want to find out just what that is.