Forgiveness, Contentment, and an Accent as Icing on the Cake!
By Jaime Plemon
Our days are numbered like the lines on a sheet of notebook paper. Our Creator already knows the plans He has for us, He also knows the number of hairs on our head. Think about that for just a minute. No, think about it for a few minutes…
I once thought I was going bald because there was so much hair in the drain. So, what did I do? I cleaned the drain, let the hair dry, and counted them. (gross, yes?) Know how many there were? 12. Yeah, 12. Now, that put some perspective into my 16 year old head. Really! 12.....What difference does that make? I mean, we can loose up to 150 a day! I suddenly realized I wouldn't have an abnormally slick scalp by the age of 18. I also realized that things aren't always what they seem.
I lived a dreamy childhood with parents that loved (and still do love) me and my 3 brothers. Our greatest tragedies were no T.V. on weeknights and forced naps of Sunday afternoons. Some thought we had it all, and in relation to the 4.5 billion or so people on the earth at that time, we were doing quite well.
I will spare details but I want to explain a little bit of the sorrows that have passed through my life in the past 10 years. I met and married "the one." We lost a child in the midst of the 7 years we spent trying to have a family. To this day I know it was a girl, and if she was with me, she and my niece would be nearly the exact same age. (And I think best friends! :)
"The one" found others..... what do you do??? I didn't give up. He did. So ended years of building dreams, having expectations of all that would come, and all the work that we put into those dreams. They were now dust in the rubble…the rubble of two lives, that became one,that then fell apart.
I thought my heart would never heal. I thought I would live in this gigantic house with 1000 cats, my dog, and a leaky roof forever. Well, until they foreclosed because I wouldn't be able to afford it...
Here is where we talk about forgiveness. "Forgiveness is giving up hope that the past could have been different." Let me say that again.-- "Forgiveness is giving up the hope....that the PAST....could have been different.” (Re-read that if you need to. Really meditate on it!) Do you harbor bitterness toward someone because they did you wrong,and all you can think is “Well, if he or she hadn't ....blaaablaablaaa.....the I wouldn't be in the position I'm in...” Do your thoughts really change anything? No,but they do increase the hold that the "wrong doer" has over you. Do you really reallllyyyyyyy want to give them that power???
You see, every single time this roof would leak I would cryyyyy.... cry so much. And you know, it really had nothing to do with the water, it had everything to do with the fact that fixing up this big, beautiful place was a dream of ours, a dream that was no more, and I hated him for it! Now, in the spirit of anonymous quotes.... "Bitterness is the poison you swallow hoping someone else will die". Isn't that so true? (Yes, feel free to read it until you have it memorized!) Now make it part of your belief system! Nothing new can come into your hands when you are holding onto the junk that is an anchor to the old.
Now, lets talk about being thankful, can we? When you realize that, just living in
We have a chance to accept the Savior of this world right here and now, to make Him the Lord of our lives, and to never again live a life of hatred toward others, to never again ask "why me", to never again fear that this life, is not what it seems. He has laid it out for us, remember? Like lines on notebook paper. So perfect that he knows our innermost being…every hair on our head, every hair we lose. His blessings are on a path He created for us, we are just so busy looking around, pointing fingers, spending money we don't have, seeking to be entertained, that we miss them! When all along, He is really all we need. He will give us the desires of our heart…if we, seek Him.
I tell you this to now circle back to the fact that this is a follow-up to my "I decided that" note. In that note, I had come to total peace and contentment in my life. Totally trusting God and knowing that He would truly give me the desires of my heart and that I would not settle for just anything. (Editor’s note: If only she had known what was coming! This is the sweetest part! --Katie)
As many of you know, I am getting married in October. I am marrying a man that is also divorced and now a better man because of the grace of God, forgiveness, acceptance, and being thankful for what he does have. He does not care that I am divorced. He is from
I should tell you that I used to have a list. (You girls know that we all have one, requirements for the next man.) Well, I did away with mine months before I met Zika. But you wanna know what I always deemed the icing on the cake... If "he" (whoever he was) had an accent! I'm not kidding. Ask my friends and family! :) Isn't it great that God hears these little things, and that He knew when I was born that He wanted to give me the desires of my heart…even when, to some, they seem so silly? But none of our dreams are silly to Him! He created us this way! We are perfect in His eyes. Acceptance of that leads to peace about who we are. Being content leads to peace about where we are.
I so look forward to all the other lost dreams that God wants to return. I can't imagine what could be next. All I know is that I wouldn't miss it for the world! He really can make something quite beautiful out of our ashes…I promise!