"Blackbird singing in the dead of night
Take these broken wings and learn to fly
All your life
You were only waiting for this moment to arise."
--"Blackbird" Paul McCartney and John Lennon
Since the first time I heard it, I have been in love with The Beatles' song "Blackbird." The funny thing is that I am not terribly fond of original version, and it's not who I heard sing it the first time. Years ago, on an episode of ER (Why yes, I have always been obsessed with TV shows! What of it?), Susan's sister sang it as a lullaby to her new baby, Chloe. (And the fact that I can remember that and not how to do high school math confounds me too.)
Since then I've heard several other versions of the song I like, such as Sara Gazarek's mash-up of "Blackbird" and "Bye, Bye, Blackbird." But my favorite is the Glee version from last week's episode. (I know, Glee. Shocker!) Kurt and the Warblers version was just perfect! It has the emotion, buoyancy--everything!
I don't really know why I love this song so much. I've never really been a "this is my moment" kind of girl, though I am a drama queen like that. I almost haven't had my moment yet, and I wouldn't know what it would be even if I did. I think of Esther from the Bible and "such a time as this" and get the same sort of feeling. I'm still waiting for the big moments in my life. That doesn't mean that I'm not living my life, though I certainly could see where I could live bigger. It just means that don't feel that I have hit many milestones in my first 30 years. It leaves a lot of living to do, which I find equal parts scary and exciting. I don't see life as a downhill slope but as a plain--wide open and ready to explore!